The past month hasn’t been easy, actually it’s been pretty emotional at times. I’m getting through plenty of tissues - I’ve cried on at least 4 days every week.
Saying that, I’m totally loving SOBA – even the crazy amount of study I have to do.
There have been a number of events in my life where I know God has healed me emotionally - now I feel Him going to an even deeper level. As a child I always wanted to be adopted. Don’t get me wrong, I had great parents, but I just wanted there to be a special someone out there who chose me for being me. On January 31st, whilst studying Ephesians, God said to me “you are adopted, I’ve adopted you”. I’ve read this passage so many times, but never before has it impacted me as deeply as that day. I had a smile on my face so big my cheeks hurt!
From that day, I’ve felt like I’ve been growing in confidence – I’m a daughter of the King – how can I not be confident!
In the past I’ve tended to shy away from dreaming, telling myself I could never live up to my dreams, and telling God He must have got it wrong to put these things in my heart. I feel that I’ve been given permission to dream and I’m dreaming BIG. The more I allow myself to dream the more excited I get and the more passion burns inside me to see the Holy Spirit move through the church and in the world.
I feel I’m alive and living the life I’ve always wanted.
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